Saturday, January 31, 2009

All Aboard the Blog Train

So, this is my first official blog, after much deliberation, and contemplation about blogs, I've finally decided to hop on the train. I'm really not sure where I'm supposed to start at all. But I guess we'll see where it all goes.

My names Amanda, I turn 22 in 17 days. I grew up in a small town out in the country of about 180 people. I loved it, and I miss it, and my family like crazy. When I graduated highschool at 18, I decided it was time to go in search of bigger and better things, so I decided to move to London, Ontario, about 3 hours away from home to pursue an education in Fashion Design.

I was so passionate about fashion when I started the program, and everyone was so sure it was the perfect path for me to head down... but 2 years into the program I left school because I felt I had lost the motivation. Now over a year after I've left school, I've finally found my passion again, but am not sure about how I feel about pursuing a career in it.

I work for a company called Laser Quest, I've been there for 3 years now, and have worked my way up to Assistant Manager, it's one of those companies I could keep working my way up in and have a great career in, I'm sure. I love all the people I work with and think it's an amazing environment most of the time. However, recently, I can't shake the feeling that it's no longer where I'm meant to be in life. I was ecstatic when I got the job, but now, just like with fashion design, I feel I may have lost my passion, and am not sure if I want to pursue a career in that either.

So turning 22, it's an interesting age, it's definitely no milestone, but lately, every year has been a milestone for me it feels. At 19, I could drink, at 20 I was no longer a teenager, at 21 I had finished the one thing I had been doing for the past 14 years of my life (school) and was no longer sure of the direction my life was taking and felt everything was spinning out of control. But now, here I am, turning 22 in a couple of weeks, and I feel like I'm coasting through life with no real motivation, passion or direction, but right now I'm ok with that I guess.

Now I'm not completely lost in what I want to do with life, I have a few different options, some of which I'm passionate about, some of which I'm not super passionate about, but might be better for me since I seem to have passion ADD for things. My first option is Culinary, I love to cook, but moreso I love to eat, I love food to no end, and I think I'm pretty talented when it comes to the kitchen, and most people agree. Whats holding me back from this? Well the main thing is what on earth will I do once I graduate? Open a restaurant? Become a head chef? I would really like to become a food critic, because then I don't have to spend 80 hours a week busting my ass in a kitchen and only paying myself for 40, the restaurant industry seems tough, and I don't think I'm thick skinned enough for it yet.

My next option is Multimedia design, I would love to do that, I would love to learn how to make 3d models of things, I would love to combine it with my love of fashion and become a character designer for video games, I even have a strong group of friends who all went to school for computer programming. But my hold back is, all of my friends who are programmers, so many of them wanted to be game programmers, but now they're working for companies programming bank machines, and cable guides, I know they love it, but would I be happy ending up in a career that's so off the path of what I had originally planned?

After Multimedia I've considered Marketing. Something I'm really not passionate about, but have a feeling I would be good at, and actually enjoy in the long run. I really have no objections to this program, or this career, so maybe if I go into this once I start learning more about it I'll find my passion.

My final option is business and entrepreneurship. With this course I would actually go after my fashion career again and try to start my own business. But where would I get the money to do this with being already rediculously in debt from my previous romp through college?

So those are my choices, non of which have a particular pull for me at the moment considering my current financial situation, but maybe I'll have my mind made up when I'm in an actual postion to go back to school.