Letting myself go? Or loving myself the way I am?

So I realized this morning as I was getting ready to go to the beach (a thing that Ryan is still doing... he's straightening his hair... for the beach) That I may be letting myself go... well maybe not letting myself go, but definitely putting forth as little effort to look good for people as possible somedays. I realized this as I put on my shorts... and realized that I have a forest on my legs - however there's a reason for that, I waxed them a couple months ago and am hoping to do it again next week. It was more when I was putting on my deodorant and realized I haven't even shaved my armpits in a few days... and didn't care. Now I don't view this as a bad thing at this point, because really, I'm not out to impress anyone when I'm going to be hot and sand covered.

Another thing I noticed though is my hair... When I was in highschool and college my hair was ALWAYS a different colour, I'd let it all grow out while dying it as many crazy colours as I could, and then I would chop it all off. It got to the point a couple of summers ago where I was almost ready to get it as short as a long buzz cut on the one side. I dyed my hair for the first time in over a year a few days ago. And it doesn't even look that different - I've had one person actually notice. But I also used to NEVER leave the house without straightened hair. This was partially because of it being short and would just take off on me. But it was also mainly because I have a rediculous cowlick right in the front (I later learned as I cut all my hair off that I have one in the back too). But I straighten my hair maybe once a week now - at most. And usually when I do straighten it I just do the front so that I don't rival elvis with the way my hair sticks out in the front. I also have been wanting to avoid dying now as much as possible because I don't want to kill my hair while I'm growing it out for my wedding (which is just over a year away).

In regards to make up, I've never really been super crazy about it, but I definately find I wear it less often now than ever. But I still do love putting it on! And normally will find the time to just throw on some eyeliner and mascara before going out somewhere.

Overall, I don't really find I'm letting myself go, so much as loving myself just the way I am, and becoming more comfortable with the person that I'm becoming.

Oh, and a quick update for the weightloss - I haven't weighed myself - but I can tell you that all my pants are getting much looser - I've gone up 2 notches on my belt at work - and I pair of shorts I bought in april that used to be tight are now falling off my butt (which is sad because I love them)

Stay tuned later for a photo post on how my hair has changed over the years! But for now - I'm off to the beach with my hairy self

Busy Bee

So you've probably noticed by now it's been a few days since I've updated my "daily log" I think I'm probably gonna slow down on that, I doubt anyone's really interested in what I eat everyday, plus I feel if I'm posting that, I'm less motivated to make actual posts. So I'll give a brief update on what I've been up to.

About a month ago my friend Leanne and I took on the task of designing for the pride fashion show, and I'm over the moon about it, I think it's a great opportunity for me! However now that our designs are done, I just feel like it's been one pain in the bum after another, and I'm sure it will all be worth it. At the first rehearsal, only 6 of the models showed up, 8 by the end, who has now dropped out. So we only have measurements for 6 girls out of 10. Our designs are very specific in the way that we want them to come out on the runway, We got a fair way into our pattern making on Friday when we received an email informing us that the model order had been changed, and that there would only be 8 models in the set now, instead of 10, meaning there would have to be a quick change, which I'm nervous our outfits won't provide the time for. We get the order sorted out and get on a roll again... and we run out of paper. *sigh* I picked up more paper, and went to start cutting out my fabric today... and realized we forgot to pick up one of our main fabrics... another big pain. So it just seems like it's one little road block after another, none of them are hard to overcome, just slightly time consuming when we don't have very much time to spend on this. (Sneak preview of the designs, our set is called "The evolution of Chic" and each outfit is inspired by a decade in the 1900's straight through to slightly futuristic)

I got alot of other stuff accomplished today though, Ryan and I made it out to the Super Walmart and picked up a couple packs of the business card paper and got all the tickets for my buck and doe printed off. I also started working on my wedding invitations today, and got the first one done, well the prototype one done, and also a template to be able to cut out the rest, I look forward to being able to get to work on them!

I've got the next 2 days off and will hopefully be able to get through alot more sewing and patternmaking, I also hope to start getting through some other business plans that I have set out for the summer, but we'll leave those for another entry when I have something more set in stone.

Not much today

So today I didn't eat a whole lot, wasn't very hungry to be honest
Pretty much just had some popcorn, a bowl of Edamame (salted soy beans) and a Veggie dog for dinner. Been drinking a couple of glasses of Kaluha and chocolate milk. My weight today is 123, my excercise is going to be dancing shortly at Way2sour.

another day missed

Well I missed another day, but oh well, I'll do yesterdays thismorning, and update todays tonight.
Breakfast - Iced coffee from starbucks - didn't have time to make it
Lunch - a piece of cold pizza lol - was left over from our staff meeting sunday night
Dinner - Vegetarian Ginger Chicken and Asparagus.
I mostly drank orange juice throughout the evening and had a night time snack of light popcorn that I shared with Ry.
Not gonna lie, yesterday I felt kinda like poop, I think it was mainly what I was doing at work, I just couldn't seem to find focus or motivation. I also think the long day of housework caught up with me because boy am I sore. I feel a little bit better today, but not by much, we'll see if I get better as the day goes on. Also my weight yesterday was 123lbs. I really didn't exercise much other than about 10 minutes of rollerblading to work, Ry picked me up, and I really just had a night to myself last night.

Also as brought up by my sister in a comment on my last post, no not all of the foods I'm eating are the healthiest, but I also want to point out that I do eat very small portions, it doesn't take much to fill me up at all, as well I have a calorie calculator on Ryan's itouch that you enter in your food that your eating, and if you're eating pretty normal food it actually has the calories and nutritional information already in it, as well as the exercise you do everyday from walking to sexual activity (hilarious, I know) and it factors it all together. I'll be posting again tonight probably, for now I have to go to work though, have a great day!

Daily log

So another day past, with some odd foods, but tonnes of exercise!
Breakfast - Cappuccino with chocolate soya milk - I ran out of condensed milk yesterday :(
Lunch - Dim sum from Hong Ping - Sesame balls with Lotus paste, shanghai dumplings with parsley, pork sui moi and BBQ pork steam buns, with Jasmine Tea
Dinner - Tempura Zaru Soba - Deep Fried shrimp and veggies with cold buck wheat noodles.

I cleaned the apartment for 5 hours straight today, I think that makes for good exercise, and that includes moving furniture, mopping and vacuuming!

Im' yet to weigh myself today, I'll post that later this evening whenever Justin is done with the TV and I can throw in the Wii Fit.